Today is my new start. I can’t continue to eat my pain. It’s not working because it’s not filling the void left by my sister. I have been trying to get through the days hoping the achy miss someone feeling would go away. It hasn’t. I don’t think it will. I think there are some things time can’t fix. You just learn to deal.
Today I am recommitting to my health and lifestyle change. I haven’t been fully committed since last April 2012. I just have had moments of committing and then have found an excuse to uncommit. I know this is depression. I have struggled with it a few times in my life. I think I have had it since my sister told me in March 2012 they were moving away. Not just away like to Texas away but to Washington state away. Too far to see them much.
I have to find a way to channel this energy into taking better care of myself. Please don’t think badly of me. I have not had issues with my weight in years and this move really threw me for a loop. Yes I am laying the blame on myself. I blame myself for allowing the sadness to change my determination to be healthier. So all I can say is I have done it before I will do it again.
Today is my new start.
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